Shawn

homeless: day 4

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 18:11:22 GMT

heh, as I write my subject line I realize a few people don't even know there was a day 1. so yeah I'm officially nomadic and it blows... There's a definite feeling of weakness/depression when you realize you have no apt.. no bed.. no computer.. nothing that is really yours, just temporarily borrowed.
To recap.. gramma got sick, got hospitalized.. had some big surgeries.. pace-maker among others.. and moved into the old-people park. So i've spent the better part of a month calling and mailing around to no avail... really trying hard to stay in this city... which I think was my downfall. This city doesn't cater so much to low-income folk.. real hard to afford a 1bedroom out here without being decently well off.. and it seems there aren't many folks looking for roomies... or when they are... they have 2 bedroom apts near some beach somewhere and need 1k+ per month for Half of the rent.
I'm not even without money, which is an odd thing being me, but it's true'nuff. Between work and school loan overflow.. I could handle a few months of reasonable rent fairly easy(working, etc.. to cover the long-term), I just don't need to go broke so I can live in "THE BEST LOCATION! ON THE BEACH OMFG!!!!111!!one one one juan juan" crazy bastards, wouldn't want to pay half that rent and have to drive to the beach a whole 5mins... that'd be insane. There are many decent apts around on the multi-room level... unfortunately, I don't know enough people looking to get in on the roommate thing. like 1300 for a 3br on centennial like across from the highschool. aka 1min walk to the boulevard (or in my case, 30secs walking to college). that'd be 400 and change each for 3 people, not harsh at all.
But ah well, that's theoretical possibility, not the actual reality. Actual reality is today I start calling all these little hotels, motels, and b&b's around here and see who will bend me over a table for the least amount of cash. Super dee Duper. There are a few real possibilities lingering around but they're all depending on one thing or another... someone moving out, or more time.. etc... just sucks, not really knowing where to go next.
So, that's my update for now, stay tuned for the next installment. later

In florida

Sat, 23 Apr 2005 19:03:18 GMT

ok, so we made it to florida.. and we're all chillin. the drive was like 40 billion hours, but I passed out through most of it because I was already over-tired. was up till 5 cramming on my two finals, thesis on the great gatsby... and a marketing plan for a product I randomly invented. well that and take tests both wednesday and thursday night. woohoo... so yeah we drove here, got here.. and now we're gonna do stuff, then put jer's stuff in the truck.. then leave tomorrow night I think. Pretty sure that about wraps that up, as for the stuff between now and leaving, I shall have to update once i know what that was/is going to be.

onto more serious BS... I've got to be out of my current place sometime between now and 60 days from now. So...

**Wanted** Roommate or room for rent. Preferrably in Gloucester centrally located. if not, then just in gloucester, and well... beyond that, just about anywhere. I got reasonable starting cash, and I'm working/looking for better paying work. So I can afford something between cheap and cheap/reasonable. heh. ah... on that note..

**Wanted** some kind of boring business associated desk-type job in the Gloucester area. as mindnumbing as possible, 40 hours a week and benefits if possible.(can deal with the benefits after 30/60/90 BS just fine.

well that's aboot it from me for me. later livejournal, you sexy little hoe you.

photo update

Tue, 08 Feb 2005 21:19:11 GMT

I'm bored.. and so I'm being creative.. kinda.. ish.. anywho 2 pictures.

Chillin with Mooch

and awww snap, dean's list

ain't updated in a while

Tue, 18 Jan 2005 17:49:38 GMT

realized my last entries sucked... bad, heh. no real substance to them, eh?

anywho, lets jam on what's transpired. december: birthday 24, woo... christmas, food and presents. and new year's eve, good time had by all.

not sure there's much else. My life is relatively unexciting. I do my hermit thing, hiding in my cave. I play my game with my woman, and/or spend hours with her on the phone. then I have that studying and homework thing... oh and school on tuesday and thursday nights. (sidenote: ian goes to my school now)

I've taken: financial accounting, managerial accounting, writing for business and computer apps.
Currently taking: Intro to business, and Statistics.
my gpa is like 3.925 because one teacher was the devil and gave me an A-.... feh

I guess that's it, unexcitement at it's best.

oh and jer, I'm still down for that so long as it coordinates with gettin back in time for edumacation

Tue, 23 Nov 2004 04:37:20 GMT

anyone else feel like we're seeing a little too much of U2 lately? SNL... Ipod.. NFL.... I really don't like his new songs so much... so ehh... maybe my too much is relative

song lyrics gone horribly wrong

Fri, 19 Nov 2004 04:57:20 GMT

coming home tonight... "you're so vain" came on the radio...

for a few brief moments I thought I heard "Clowns in my coffee, Clowns in my coffee" ... I was both terrified and confused... thankfully the word was... clouds..

::shudder::

having one of those days

Sat, 30 Oct 2004 19:49:10 GMT

One of those days when only the saddest songs make ya happy.
A little ironic and very much poetic
Not really sad.. don't feel like crying
Just feelin like darkness amidst the light.
Missing everything I can't touch
Wanting everything I can't have.
Worrying about everything I can do nothing about.
Most other days I'd be just fine
Be just realistic enough to get by
Living in New England, there's no point fightin it.
It'll always rain again.
Suck it up and deal, I guess
It's bound to clear up sometime.

team america, heh

Thu, 28 Oct 2004 00:23:02 GMT

Highly amusing movie... heh. so many precious lines... but here's one for now.

We’re dicks. We’re reckless arrogant stupid dicks and the film actors’ guild are pussies... and Kim jong ill is an asshole. Pussies don't like dicks, because pussies get fucked by dicks. But dicks also fuck assholes, assholes who just wanna shit on everything. Pussies may think they can deal with assholes their way, but the only thing that can fuck an asshole is a dick, with some balls. The problem with dicks is that sometimes they fuck too much, or fuck when it isn't appropriate and it takes a pussy to show em that. But sometimes pussies get so full of shit that they become assholes themselves, because pussies are only an inch and a half away from assholes. I don't know much in this crazy crazy world... but I do know that if you don't let us fuck this asshole... we are gonna have our dicks and our pussies all covered in shit.

i did it

Thu, 21 Oct 2004 20:27:36 GMT

with the oppotunity before me.. I had to try it....

I just had... Pork Chop Sandwiches. and they really weren't that bad(kinda good really). they were shake & baked and I had hamburger rolls... so I had to go for it.

Thu, 21 Oct 2004 04:01:42 GMT

omg redsox win the penant! yay... err do i get the first post?

bah

Thu, 21 Oct 2004 03:55:52 GMT

I can tell life hates me when...

I'm slurping some ramen noodles... and some dry cracker piece manages to slip down my throat and send me into a coughing fit... then I go to drink some water from my freshly chilled 2liter pepsi bottle... not realizing I filled it almost all the way and as I go to sip, the side of the bottle caves a little and I suddenly find a heavy flow of water being squirted directly up my nose. bahhhh

lots of daytime tv....

Tue, 10 Aug 2004 16:45:36 GMT

Jerry springer: he never has any black people with your basic everyday names.... they're either super african like... Shaniquatifa or Yolandazantikazabwe. or they're random nouns.... like... Bacon, or cheese, or... book binding. and the ones he gets for his show... have like conversational OCD.... if they say anything they must say it 15-20 times. "and what, and what, and what and what... etc.. etc..." "I'm sleepin wit yo boyfriend. I'm sleepin wit yo boyfriend... on and on" now.... I'm not being a racist, I'm pointing out a clear and obvious fact of the jerry springer show. I know there are african-americans with less complicated names, who can speak normally and are obviously smart enough to go to college, run businesses and be heads-of-state. Just Jerry's show... damn he can pick em.
Maury: ohhhhh boy. now his show normally sucks, unless its... "Maury I cheated on my boyfriend and our baby might not be his" dna testing shows. Personally I love the shock from the women when... pre-dna test.. the guys don't want to talk to them... and even more-so... when the test comes back and the guy is NOT the father.... they're absolutely shocked that the guys want nothing to do with them. I think it's hilarious, sometimes some of them have even tried to turn it around like... the guy is bad for taking her cheating the way he did. I'm sorry, but if any chick cheats on me... be it my girlfriend, fiancee, wife... wife of 30 years..... it's fucking over. but if you cheat on me... AND suddenly our child or two... aren't mine. get the Fuck out.... not only get the Fuck out, but if we're married... I will spend huge amounts of money on the best lawyer to ensure I ruin your life and you don't get a dime of mine. In that instance I can completely understand going from in-love to heartless in as quick as the words come from her mouth.... more-so as quick as the dna tests are read negative. cheatin is the ultimate betrayal.. it means he/she lied, he/she doesn't love you enough to be loyal to you. atleast, this is my opinion... and thus why I laugh when the girls just start bawling. Some girl cheats on her husband long enough that 2 of their children... (meaning cheating for atleast a year) may not be his. and whether the results come back good or bad, he still wants to leave... she'll start bawling "I'm sorry, I'm sorry... it won't happen again." and the guys just have none of it. I could see "it won't happen again" to... using his truck and hitting a tree. Not using a truck is easy, but the cheating thing is like the max violation. I don't know if there's a bigger break in trust.
onto lighter things.... heh
Elimidate: the people on that show need some self control. for those who don't know.... the show starts out with one boy/girl then 4 of the opposite sex... and they go round by round, one elimidated at a time. until there's a pair. I'm convinced no pair on this show will ever last... more than a night or two. the person picked is either the person who argued the best or least... or the person who kissed the best. There's never any talking to one guy or girl on the date.... its always insane arguing between the "4" though to be fair... the guys on this show, when there's 4 of them... their ability to argue... their argue stamina is much less than the womens... so there is some talking to the chick... with lil shots taken here and there at eachother. but if you watch this show.. and you see the 4 girl/1guy scenario... you'll understand.
well that's it for mine daytime tv random LJ update.... I'm sure I've filled enough space on your friends page. bwaha, fear my evil. later people.

hmmm

Sun, 23 May 2004 01:01:16 GMT

maybe i'm confused... or insane... or something....

but i was certain that the nick and jessica variety hour was a sign of the coming of the four horsemen of the apocalypse. I watched it tonight because I'm masochistic and haven't assaulted my brain in some time. Oddly enough, I was entertained.

10 seconds of awkwardness with Mr. T.
Kit from nightrider
the muppets
kenny rogers

and their lil outtakes with mistakes/bloopers etc... were again strangely amusing. Mostly cause jess is a tool, and she knows it, and she doesn't let it get her down.

four outta five stars.... woulda had 5 if nick didn't annoy me when he talked and didn't take off his shirt.

OH, and few things are more fun than "drunken" kitties. had her chasing a favorite toy-on-a-string in circles... then... well, if it were ice-skating I'd call the moves this. "tail chase infinitum" into a "walk which straight line, officer?"

sweet music videos

Mon, 10 May 2004 04:53:03 GMT

http://www.rathergood.com/laibach/

http://www.rathergood.com/gaybar/

Sun, 18 Apr 2004 07:27:31 GMT

i met bostonpunk today, w00t. so far as i remember, she is teh rox0r. nothing else to remember right now, but she said to add her, so i did.

post from kittay

Thu, 08 Apr 2004 21:13:31 GMT

cool things to do in the new house:

run around at mach one

eat computer wires

use shawn like jungle gym and put furry butt in his face

(typed one handed by shawn... who has a sleeping kittay on his chest)

new purry kittay motar

Thu, 08 Apr 2004 04:11:33 GMT

I've got a new kitten type kittay.... but i prolly won't have pictures until jer gets home and I harass him into taking some with the digital. she's almost all grey... and i think it's a she... from my understanding of what constitutes what. that and my Princess Bitch... hates the kitten passionately, it's awful. so yeah, almost all grey, but she's got like embedded tiger strypes of a slightly darker hue. white spot in the center of her chest. currently she's living at moms cause I have no cat supplies here... but she'll be moving in tomorrow. I'm a little concerned with kitten proofing my house.... but ehh... we'll see how it goes. mostly just worried about my computer wires.

two years

Wed, 31 Mar 2004 20:22:27 GMT

Two years ago today... i met my woman. and how did we meet?
>e[Graveyard, Under Crypt]
A bewildering series of tunnels through the rock greets you. While not shaped by clever craftsmen, the channels do not appear natural. Trails of slime coat the ground and lead off in several directions. You also see a greater ghoul.
Also in the room: Amanaia
Obvious exits: east, west, northwest, southwest.
>You grin.
>Amanaia swings a longsword at a greater ghoul!
AS: +46 vs DS: +10 with AvD: +41 + d100 roll: +86 = +163
... and hits for 42 points of damage!
Hard slash to belly severs a few nerve endings.
You hear a sound like a weeping child as a white glow separates itself from the greater ghoul's body as it rises, disappearing into the heavens.
The greater ghoul falls to the ground motionless.
>You feel more refreshed.
You ask, "you got scrapings maybe?"
Amanaia smiles.
Amanaia says, "Yes"

In gemstone III, hunting for ghoul scrapings as mugazzi for a younger body of mine. she gave me like a dozen ghoul scrapings and wouldn't accept my small statue as payment... instead I took her hunting for a few trips... got to know her... then next thing I know... I'm hunting her down every time she logs in.
2 years later, we've returned from our third trip together, New Orleans. and the place was amazing. the city has amazing personality... and it doubles as the most drinkinest city on the planet... atleast the french quarter section. we did a cemetary tour, bayou tour, and a haunted french quarter tour. partook in food native to the area... went to the hardrock cafe there (our second hard rock). had a couple quiet meals together. did some souvenier shopping, or however you spell it... and just some walking in general... seeing bourbon street and other cool stuff in the french quarter. Oh yeah...hmmmm and I guess we spent a little time inside too. top floor suite at a hotel just off bourbon, big kingsized bed. we were wyndham by request members so our room had iced cokes, waters, and two Big chocolate chip cookies waiting for us. heh. it was corny but cool. so yeah, we spent a pretty good amount of time ummmm admiring the room and its architecture. and it was allllll good.
so 2 years pass and I go from only meeting her in a text based role-playing game... to not being able to imagine my life without her in it.

I suppose it's also worth noting that only a couple months (June) after meeting in-game and spending the gross amount of time together that we always have... my characters asked hers to marry them.(we both had two main characters) anywho, this is a poem ish thing... I say ish cause you'll see, normally my definition of poetry involves pure rhyming, but this is rhyming in the majority i think. in the end I liked it... even though its some kinda poetry-prose crossbreed.... so yeah this isn't brand new, this is just one from last year that I never shared, atleast i don't think. probably not one of my best, but i think it's pretty good.

edit: keep in mind that at the time I wrote this, we were winding up and planning for our first trip in september, I hadn't even been with her yet. but we were very very close at this point, i mean hell we had to be to plan a trip like we did

one week ago, one year ago..
You said you'd be my wife,
I look back now, see us then,
and how you changed my life.
How could I have expected this,
who could have known where we'd be,
to go from knowing you only in game,
to wanting you here with me.

And I do love you more today, than yesterday.
And yes, that's only half as much as tomorrow.
Lyrics to an old song...
that seem to hold true for how i feel today.

i have no words for how you make me feel,
No way to describe your unlimited appeal.
I can't believe you're real some days,
Not sure how to say it any other way...

I love you,
You are my world.
You light up my life.
Just by being my girl.
I love when you laugh,
When you breathe, when you talk to me,
when we'll meet,
when we'll kiss, when you'll walk with me.

I want to make you happy,
Please you more than you've ever known.
Warm your heart, know your mind,
Pleasure your body, make you moan.
I want to be there when you're sad...
Or when the day just won't go right.
So I could comfort you, snuggle you,
..Tell you it'll be alright.
I want to be there for everything,
'Cause you're everything to me.
I want to show you how good your love feels,
what it does to me, I'll make you see.

So I'm here and I'm yours,
For as long you'll have me, forever would be nice.
To hold you close... taste your kiss... feel your warmth...
Only being on-line with you, clearly will not suffice.
I need you, like I need air to live.
I want to see you, like the sun, every morning.
I long to hold you, every night.
I'm gonna love you forever, :-* .. just a fair warning. :-*

Fri, 26 Mar 2004 04:47:20 GMT

watching the 700 club right now... i don't know why..., talking about the case thats heading towards the supreme court. the whole mess about "under god" in the pledge of allegiance. and they argue the whole separation of church and state....

I'm not religious... i was at one point... long story short... I'm more agnostic... a fence sitter... there's something but i don't know what, i need to be swayed/convinced, no blind faith, too much science for that. SO that established... the separation of church and state was not put in place to say "the government can't talk about religion or god". It WAS however put in place to say "The government cannot govern the church or religions in general" freedom of religion and practice.
"One nation, under god" etc.. etc... that all comes from the founders of this country, the pilgrims right on up to the people that wrote the constitution.... regardless what people believe or not... the country was founded by religious people in a more religious time. I don't believe in, nor do i worship "god"... but I understand that its a part of the overwhelming majority of this country.
that said... the people with this case, could have the strongest case ever in the history of this country... to remove under god from the pledge of allegiance.... And they would lose. Solely because this country in its majority is held together by a fine thread that is their blind faith in god. Should something be done by the government that would act against even this word... there would be upheaval and chaos through the religious element of the country. they cannot afford to let that happen, and they know it.
I don't believe a school can hold a gun to your head and make you say "one nation.. UNDER GOD... indivisable with liberty.. etc.. etc.." Also, I don't believe it'd be so hard for someone so strongly opposed to saying "god" to just mumble by that part of skip it entirely. and everyone knows it.
this case heading to the supreme court = just plain stupid.
/rant

ps. trip-in-review at some point.

Wed, 10 Mar 2004 05:00:22 GMT

In an abandoned warehouse,with no lights, just shadows.. and soon no rabbits
The purpose of the event is to pass the torch
From one generation of heavy metal, to the next.
And there live,in his black leather hunting outfit, with his shotgun guitar with spikes coming out of it.
Ozzie Fudd - The Rabbit Slayer

In the dead of night, a shimmawing wight
dweam of a bwade, and the devwil paid
When the axe comes down, a chiwwing sound
Stew gets the head, anothaw wabbit's dead
I'm a wabbit slayaw, a guitaw pwaya
With a nasty habbit....
KILL THE WABBIT!

Hahahahahahaha

I'm a mean mistweatewr, a wabbit feastewr
And I pwedict, a bwoody Eastaw
a scuwwying shadow, and shadow wants to stab it
And the night air echoes.....
KILL THE WABBIT!
Kill the wabbit, Kill the Wabbit, Kill the Wabbit, Kill the Wabbit...KILL THE WABBIT! kill the wabbit, kill the wabbit, kill the wabbit.

wohhhhh and there won't be anymore wabbits around, no more Woger wabbit, no more Petewr wabbit and no more Pwayboy bunny wabbits... ahhhhahhahahahaha be vewwy vewwy careful... ohhhhh....
cwazy wabbit....

heh

Wed, 10 Mar 2004 03:07:11 GMT

lol, some moron died tonight.

a black man broke into a blockbuster video store... and stole some playstation video games. he broke in through a window.. and on his way out, cut his leg on some jagged glass... severing a main artery. He made it two blocks before dying. The moron.... died for $300 worth of playstation games. For this great deed in dickitry... We award this man with the "Jackass of the Week" title.

fox news made my night.

sleep now, finally

Sun, 07 Mar 2004 07:19:44 GMT

I'm Dying, Dying to wake up without you, without you in my head again
I'm Dying, Dying to forget about you, that you ever lived
There's a shade come over this heart that's coping with laying down to rest
I'm Dying to live without you again

I'm Dying, Dying to find a distraction, get you away from me
I'm Dying, Dying to reach a conclusion, so that the world can see
It's the same old story of love and glory that broke before it bent
I'm Dying to live without you again

The first time you left I said goodbye
Now there's not a prayer that can survive

Dying, Dying to die just to come back so we can meet again
Dying, Dying to say what I always should have said
It's a strange emotion this but there's still hope in this
As long as there's a breath...
I'm Dying and I can't live without you again

It's a strange emotion this but there's still hope in this
As long as there's a breath...

I'm Dying and I can't live without you
I'm Dying and I can't live without you again

less than a week now

Sat, 06 Mar 2004 08:58:22 GMT

5 days and change... thursday the 11th. as I think about that and tear up a lil with anticipation/happiness. time to start thinking about packing... what i want to wear/bring etc. I mean, not that bringing clothes to wear is really *that* important. the occasional meal here and there, only when necessary to sustain life. oh, and then there's my hair crisis, which joey is going to be my hero for. headed over there sunday, hopefully doing something semi-creative with my head. whole lotta hair and no ideas. saw some "New Kids" (yes you know exactly what i mean) ish hairstyles that looked like something I could pull off. But then... how much do I really want my hair to resemble that? Oh oh Ohooohhhoh the right stuff! if i somehow straightened... i'd have some decently long hair... i mean for me... The hair above my ears... can come down and completely cover them if I pull it down over them. so, we'll see how it goes. Joey is as professional as I reckon I'll ever know, I trust in his talent.
so, I sleep now... kind of in that christmas mentality... the quicker you get to bed, the quicker tomorrow gets here. merry new orleans to everyone.

countdown

Thu, 26 Feb 2004 07:26:55 GMT

well since it's technically today now (thursday)... my countdown begins. I am currently 1 week away from 1 week away from seeing my chica. as you may note.. the structure of that sentence... I prefer to say one week twice... it feels smaller than saying 2 weeks. I can't wait... i mean, I suppose I have to wait... but I really can't wait. 4-5days ish of mmmm..... sight seeing and being a tourist, yes. Yup, spending every hour daylight oot and aboot.. enjoying... scenery... and such. hurry up trip, lets go.
I guess I don't really have much else to say intelligently. just sort of a time update.

smelling her perfume
nala eyes staring my way
miss her most at night

a lil haiku for you, well.. not really for you.. but you know.. haiku for you rhymes... so i said it. SHUT UP... I know... christ, get off my back. I'll say it again, but it's still not really for you, I don't care what you think. you can buck a fuffalo for all I shiv a git! rawr, i got my strategery in the lockbox.

Valentines day

Sat, 14 Feb 2004 05:46:40 GMT

well... no real valentines day for me tomorrow. :( bummer and a half.

well no, not really. Jen and I decided to push OUR valentines day back to our New Orleans trip. So I made it official and asked her out for a Valentines "Date", during our trip. I never really "asked her out" before this point, we just got together wherever and mmmmm had a good time. So i scored some sweet "cuteness points" for whole asking her out thing. and a poem I gave her earlier in the week, plus a scented candle package thing i sent her (she's into em) and plus I have a big card showing up on Valentines day, if i timed it right. racking up the big points. I plan on totally corning it out too, pick up a box of chocolates, a rose, go out to dinner... all that. ya know... general datey stuff. gonna have to think of more planning and stuff.